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  "Reaching out" in the org and personal confessions...

  by Good JW in

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  going to be completely honest here, no feelings spared for me.

  when i was a jw, one of my biggest motivations for "reaching out" was to become a "somebody".

  i loved the idea of being a leader, teaching/training others.

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  Good JW

  Going to be completely honest here, no feelings spared for me. When I was a JW, one of my biggest motivations for "reaching out" was to become a "somebody". I loved the idea of being a leader, teaching/training others. Unless I was somehow explaining something, or showing someone what to do, I didn't feel fulfilled.

  Knowing these feelings in part, and amongst other reasons, I decided the best thing to do would be to wait until my motivations for "serving in the congregation" were more pure and less egotistical. Considering I'm not even a very proud person (actually suffered from inferiority complex deep down), this says a lot about many who do end up in positions of power. It makes me wonder how much is self-service?

  I now know that these motivations were stimulated by other things that were missing/wrong in my life, and being a "leader" was just a cover-up.
  

  Even after I left, I still had to cope with this delusional part of me that wanted to "show other people what to do" spiritually speaking. It's egotism in disguise! Some still don't even know they're doing it...
  
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  Biting my tongue

  by Jrjw in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i'm really biting my tongue at the moment with a certain witness.

  he said he hates how the churches have lied to people, misled them, controlled them, got money out of them.

  gouge can he noht see the wts has done that, i really wanted to say something so badly.

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  Good JW

  like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders
  

  That's because it has...then a couple of years later once you've settle down again you're like "crap, who exactly am I?"
  

  lol

  ...and the journey of self discovery begins
  
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  Biting my tongue

  by Jrjw in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i'm really biting my tongue at the moment with a certain witness.

  he said he hates how the churches have lied to people, misled them, controlled them, got money out of them.

  gouge can he noht see the wts has done that, i really wanted to say something so badly.

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  Haha, I have to act like that for my JW mother when visiting. Bless her, she's so naive about TTATT I have no other option but to let her express herself. Common themes tend to be about how "forward thinking the society is" and how "the organisation is really growing" lol. One time I even set up her I-Pad so she can watch JW broadcasting! I felt violated that day :)
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  Whatever happened to the "written review"?

  by pale.emperor in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  does anyone know why the written review was stopped?

  i relished the half hour silence they'd give you to "write down your answers", time i spend doodling or thinking up cool song lyrics..

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  Good JW

  Waton - yes it must be very irritating when your sheep start using their brain. lol
  
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  On Grief and Loss

  by jp1692 in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  on grief and loss.

  each and every tear is a memory.

  and when you feel so intensely all that you have lost, you are also remembering everything that you have had.

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  Good JW

  Thank you JP.

  I have often wondered what the best course is for a person who's lost another in death - my dad died when I was 28 and I kind of buried the feelings. I thought of grief as something one must just "get over", but it doesn't work that way, nor should it be...as you've so poetically put it. The grief tags along with memories etc, something to experience rather than hide or run from.
  
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  Whatever happened to the "written review"?

  by pale.emperor in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  does anyone know why the written review was stopped?

  i relished the half hour silence they'd give you to "write down your answers", time i spend doodling or thinking up cool song lyrics..

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  Good JW

  Does anyone know why the written review was stopped?
  

  It had that dangerous effect of making people think (to a certain degree). Nowadays they've figured how to let the brain slowly rot by sticking on Sparlock cartoons and Tight Pants Tony.
  
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  Generation

  by Jrjw in

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  2. beliefs

  please could someone explain to me what the generation thing i keep seeing in people's threads was that had lots of people leave the wts coz it was way before i became a witness.

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  Sorry, can't help much - I used to sleep during the (more than usual) bull crap...
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  Wierd Shunning Stories

  by VW.org in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  yesterday i went to a shopping center.

  i saw a dub who was once a very friendly person.

  he was about 10 metres from me when i noticed him.

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  Some of the strangest shunning experiences for me is where they did it bipolar style. One minute they were making the effort (like that friendly "I still think you're ok" smile), the next minute you have some contagious disease or worse, don't exist. It's like they expected you to fall to the floor in gratitude for the crumbs they dropped.

  "Let's give this heathen some encouragement, you never know, he might return to the true religion and Jehovah won't have to smite his ass"
  

  If they acknowledge you, so be it, if not, who cares (not me anymore). Got my own life now that more resembles reality lol.
  
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  Wierd Shunning Stories

  by VW.org in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  yesterday i went to a shopping center.

  i saw a dub who was once a very friendly person.

  he was about 10 metres from me when i noticed him.

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  Good JW

  I find that if you see a JW squirming, scared to look at you/speak, simply be over-enthusiastic about seeing them, like they're a long lost friend:

  http://www.relatably.com/m/img/wide-eyed-meme-girl/hqdefault.jpg

  (try not to get a restraining order)
  
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  Why do ex-JW's talk so much about being ex-JW's?

  by Sour Grapes in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  is it because we were in the cult watchtower compound that we talk about being ex-jw's when we stop being active?

  i have never heard anyone say that i was an ex-catholic or an ex-lutheran or an ex-baptist.

  they just stop going to their church and don't talk about it.. years after not stepping inside a kingdom hell, many of us still have to talk about being ex-jw's.

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  Good JW

  On a slightly more serious note, I do think that ex JWs are damaged (not beyond repair though, just need the right direction). A JW is taught to see things very externally, always judging "the others", and rarely looking internally other than to feel guilt/shame. There are countless negative psychological traits of WT indoctrination, but the top of the lot is probably making the average adherent (and many who leave) feel powerless. This damaging mindset is often taken with you! Ironically, you can go from feeling like a persecuted JW, to a persecuted ex JW.

  "Woe is me"

  That's one of the most damaging aspects. The feeling that everyone is against you (them against me), or that you're stuck, unable to do something positive about your situation.